Moral

Have I ever said this before? I don't think so. But I'll say it now, for the first and last time: I despise Pendidikan Moral but THANK GOD Moral is over and I shall never ever see another stoooooopid nilai or read another stoooooooopid definisi because it's all RUBBISH. Does anyone need any MORALITY to get A1 for Moral? For all Moral is worth, I know of a pretty immoral friend who got A1 for Moral - and all the other subjects for that matter, but my point is... Moral is the most *insert expletives* subject in the whole wide world. What can you actually LEARN, for cryin' out loud!!

OK, now that I've gotten that off my burdened chest, I must say that today has been the most stressful and tiresome exam of my whole entire life. So far. Additional maths from 8a.m. until 1p.m. and Moral from 2.30 until 5p.m. Additional maths was enough to drain out all my brain cells. So by the time the clocked ticked 3p.m., I was wanting to scream, dig my grave and die, because I was so freaking tired, hot, sweaty and to add to my sufferings the Moral questions were so bizarre and frying my brains that I was just scribbling nonsense words and not caring if it was the most appropriate thing.

But anyway it's all over. For me. After years and years (actually only this year, hmmm) of memorizing, I shall drain all memory of Moral from my head. As for those of you who are younger than I, I heard that Moral is going to be cancelled from SPM a few years down the road. There is hope for the children of this world!! Whatever. Onwards... to the Science subjects...

[oh, oh, by the way, did anyone realize that one of the Moral questions about Puan Lisa complaining about her majikan, the sender address was 'Banting, Selangor'? Wooohhohohohohooooo didn't know Banting so famous!!]

Lose My Soul

I love the song "Lose My Soul" by Tobymac featuring Kirk Franklin and Mandisa.
[Does anybody remember Mandisa from American Idol 5?? She was amazing...]

Lyrics:

"Man I wanna tell ya'll something man"
"Man I'm not gonna let these material things get in my way ya'll"
"I'm trying to get somewhere"
"I'm trying to get somewhere that's real and pure and true and eternal"
"Toby can you go with your boy?"

"Let's go"
Father God, I am clay in your hands
Help me to stay that way through all life’s demands
‘Cause they chip and they nag and they pull at me
And every little thing I make up my mind to be
Like I’m gonna be a daddy who's in the mix
And I’m gonna be a husband who stays legit
And I pray that I’m an artist who rises above
the road that is wide and filled with self love
Everything that I see draws me
Though it’s only in You that I can truly see
That its a feast for the eyes - a low blow to purpose
And I’m a little kid at a three ring circus

I don’t want to gain the whole world and lose my soul
Don’t wanna walk away let me hear the people say
(I like that there)
I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul
Don't wanna walk away let me hear the people say

"Mr. Franklin, step up to the mic sir."
"Check it out."
The paparazzi flashes and that they think that it’s you
But they don't know that who you are is not what you do
True, we get it twisted when we peak at the charts
Yo before we part from the start where’s your heart?
You a pimp, hustler?
Tell me what’s your title
America has no more stars now we call them idols
You sit idle
While we teach prosperity
The first thing to prosper should be inside of me
We’re free!
Not because of 22’s on the range
But Christ came in range we said yes now we changed
Not the same even though I made a fall
Since I got that call no more Saul now I’m Paul
"Yup"

I don’t want to gain the whole world and lose my soul
Don’t wanna walk away (I like this!) let me hear the people say
I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul
Don't wanna walk away let me hear the people say
Don't wanna walk away, walk away, walk away

"Mandisa come on!"
How do I sense the tide that’s rising?
De-sensitizing me from living in light of eternity, eternity
(Watch me now)
How do I sense the tide that’s rising?
(The tide is rising ya'll)
It’s hypnotizing me from living in light of eternity, tell me
How do I sense the tide that’s rising?
De-sensitizing me (It's makin' me drown) from living in light
Livin' in light of eternity

Lord what we gonna do?
We're relyin' on you
All eyes are on you Lord
All eyes are on you
All eyes are on you Jesus
I don't wanna gain the whole world and lose my soul
Light a candle ya'll!
Lift it high ya'll, come on!

I don't wanna gain the whole world and lose my soul
"No prophit in gainin' the whole word and lose your soul, Yes sir"
I don't wanna gain the whole world and lose my soul
"Every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess"
This is my honesty, father won't you cover me.
"Come on!"
I don't wanna gain the whole world and lose my soul
"Lift 'em up ya'll, left'em up!"
Don't wanna walk away, and all His people say
I don't wanna gain the whole world, and lose my soul
No I, don't wanna lose, I don't wanna lose my soul.
"Come on!"

Lord forgive us when we get consumed
By the things of this world that fight for our love
(Yes Lord) and our passion (Yes Lord)
As our eyes are open wide and on you (Talk to 'em)
Grant us the privelage of your world view
And may your kingdom be
What wakes us up, and lays us down

Hallelujah, hallelujah
(No, don't let me lose my soul)

-afterparty-


[For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the
whole world, and lose his own soul? Mark 8:36KJV]

I totally shout AMEN to the lyrics. We really have to remember our purpose and goal on this earth is not to have success. Of course, it's awesome if we do be successful, but we I don't want to gain the whole world and lose my soul. Amen!!
Oh and Mandisa's voice is amazing. Love her! God bless.

S.P.M.

Right. This is the biggest exam I have ever taken (and still taking) and one of the biggest I will ever take. The exam that will probably decide where I go and what I do with the rest of my life. It could spell success and it could be my downfall.

But I am feeling quite positive about the first two days of exam. Sejarah (history), which is one of the hardest subjects for me, was not as bad as I dreaded. I am quite hopeful for a good result in it. As for Bahasa Malaysia and English, I just pray and hope that the examiners will be fair and lenient in marking my essays. Other than that, I am apprehensive for the following papers next few weeks, especially Moral and Biology.

However, the long hours in exam hall, from 8am stretching until 4.30pm is very taxing on everyone's body and brain. I don't know how we can think properly when our bodies are screaming for sleep and our brain drying up under the sweltering heat of the Malaysian perpetual summer. But I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen!

Oh, by the way - the English essay topic I chose was "My Perfect Future Husband or Wife". Unknown to me, I had already written the essay a long time ago here!! Hahahahahaha... and guess who I wrote about? Hmmmmmm....

The Law of The Exams

"The Law of The Exams" from the book "The Twisted Stethoscope" by Jason Leong.

1. Study your arse off
2. Sleep 2 hours a day
3. Abandon all social life
4. Your books are extensions of your eyeballs...

[but of course we know all that and try in vain to achieve it, but here's something that the unobservant non-kiasu student may not know...]

5. Never admit you are studying hard or that you are even studying
6. Always ascertain the progress of fellow exam sitters
7. Do not give your own progress away
8. Only offer help to weaker students
9. Possess an aura of pathetic incompetency, i.e. "Aiyoh, die-lah, die-lah!"
10. After exam, never verbalise that you think you will score well, always say you are going to fail...

Although I don't really believe in the theory, but it really emphasizes the kiasu-ness of Malaysian students. The book "The Twisted Stethoscope" is really, really funny - I couldn't stop laughing all throughout the book. It also touched a lot of deep nerves in me being a student sitting for exams, especially the mentality of our parents, society and friends. Amazing book, must must must must read!! Especially if you are planning to go overseas to study, especially if you are planning to do medicine... X0

[I'm not sure if this infringes any laws of copyright or whatever, please tell me if it does and I'll take it down straight away...]

Gorsh

Wow, SPM is drawing near - very, very near. 10 more days even as I speak.
Very soon my life as a secondary school student will be over. I will no longer wear this stupid white uniform, green pants and tie. I will no longer lug my heavyweight schoolbag to school, wake up at the dead of the dawn to bathe and eat breakfast nor stand in stupid assemblies under the scorching sun.

Frankly speaking, it's a bitter-sweet feeling. It's sweet, of course, to be finally free of government exams, text books and all that. No more school, oh yeah! But hey, I'll miss my classmates. I'm sad that 12 years of school life will be over. It's a whole new world out there that I don't really know because I've been under the shelter of school. Beyond these years, true friends are hard to find. People will start walking in and out of your life, there ain't no one you can really stick to.

OK I'm being over-dramtically melancholic, so should I just say... I can't wait for SPM to be over!! In actual fact, I can't wait for it to COME. I actually can't wait to sit for SPM to the fullest - to feel every tense nerve pop, and experience the stress, trauma and sensation of sitting for the ultimate exam of your life - no, not really.

Did you know there will be many other exams to come? SPM is not the final exam, and it is definitely not the hardest - that is if you're aiming for more. I know my sisters studying Medicine are struggling through really tough exams, every year! This make me wonder why we study so hard to sit for such difficult exams like SPM, only to study even harder and sit for even tougher exams later on. But at the end of the the day, your success is directly proportional to how the harder exams that you sit for. True or false? Not really, but like a MES alumni at Canada once told us, "The better your results, the more options you will have".

In conclusion, I can't wait for 11th November to come, but I am dreading 27th because that... will be the end. No more Form 5. No more school. I think I'll miss it.

[All the above is said assuming that I do not go up to Form 6, which I really hope I do not do...]

But now I'm still Form 5. I'm still sitting for SPM. Can I shut up and get back studying?

ZITS!!!

I. Just. Love. Zits.
No, not zits as in pimples but the comic strip "Zits" by Jerry Scott and Jim Borgman. It is always, always so funny and comical in a way I can relate to because it is centered on this teenager called Jeremy, his parents and his friends. Most English newspapers have the comic everyday at the Entertainment section, I think.

Anyway, I collected quite a number of Zits comic strips from 2004 until now, and I kept the ones I thought was funny enough to incur a smile or a laugh from myself. I have posted some and will be posting alot more in http://kana-kana-kana.blogspot.com (my secondary blog).

Some strips have a short storyline lasting one week or so, for example one series I named "Cleanliness. Or Lack Of It" and "Teen Pregnancy". I will be adding more later when I'm free. XD Enjoy!

Here are some of the comic strips...

Happy Deepavali

Gaahh!!!
It's the first time I'm living in a place outside of Kuching (at least as long as I can remember) when Deepavali is being celebrated. Heck, I didn't know it was being done so exuberantly.

They even have fireworks!! Now all the festivals seem to have the reoccurring theme of noisy firecrackers, makan makan makan and visiting each other. This really shows the diverse cultures in Malaysia really mixing, intertwining and closely connecting to each other.

Unfortunately Interestingly enough, Selangor has a high population of Hindus and Indians, therefore my ears are being constantly bombarded by the cheerful sounds of celebrations at this present moment, thus I cannot get anything into my head at all, therefore I must thank the cheer-givers for the distraction so I have an excuse not to study for one night.

=) Cheers, Happy Dancing in the Deep Valley! [Deep-A-Valley... XD]

Sick Sick Sick

Aggghhhhhhh. I have fever, flu and sore throat. Three of the six major temporary illnesses that I hate. [The others being cough, diarrhea and ulcer]
I think I got it from Gerald Ho. Probably transmitted through LAN network or something.

In light of Biology... I NEED MY LEUCOCYTES!!! a.k.a White blood cells. Where are my Basophils, Eosinophils, Neutrophils (B.E.N.), Lymphocytes and Monocytes (L.M.) that I need and love so much? *sob*

In light of Chemistry... I have taken Paracetamol, brand name known as Panadol. Paracetamol is neutral in nature unlike aspirin (acetyl salicylic acid). Paracetamol reduces fever, pain, flu symptoms, bony aches and runny nose.

*sigh* Still need to study... no time to rest... remember the chorus of the SPM song? "No one cares if you faint or cry or DIE IN PAIN..."

Aku Ini Orang Januari

RULES:
- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
- Bold (or italicize) the best apply to you.
- Copy to your own blog, with all twelve months.
- Tag 5 people.

I. Am. January.

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. [At least I don't think so] Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds[Absolutely!]. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.




JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves makingfriend s but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH: Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest.Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous.Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friend ly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful.Friend ly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudy ing.Love s to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious.Think s quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to makefriends.

SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable.Love s to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treatsfriends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked.Love s to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor.

Drought

Aaaaggghhhhhhhhh
Aaaaggghhhhhhhhh
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AAAAGGGHHHHHHHHH
AAAAGGGHHHHHHHHH
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WHY NO WATER?!!!
*sob* *sob*
The past two days whole Banting no water, but my house didn't realize until today. I think the reserve tank finally ran out, I guess. So have to ration water like army camp. Think National Service, but at least I have actual FOOD.

I think some pipe at some reservoir somewhere burst and no one is fixing it? Even at Nilai also no water, what the heck!! Imagine how the Africa people survive with no clean water. *sob* Must be thankful. Must be thankful.

You know what's worse? I have a freaking ulcer, which makes lack of water even less bearable. WhywhytellmewhyIWANTWATERGIVEMEWATERORIWILLDIEEEEEEEEE....